Rated PG-13
© 1999 Holly @ Roseslay@aol.com
based on some characters
and situations originated by James Cameron
Tommy and Fabrizio were right where
Jack knew they would be. They were sitting in the smoking room laughing and
joking. The funny thing was they didn't look out of place. It was as if they
always had belonged there. Tommy was smoking a cigar and arm wrestling with
JJ Astor. It was quite a sight to see. JJ Astor dressed as a gentleman, while
Tommy had on trousers, a white stained shirt and that goofy hat he always insisted
on wearing. Both men were straining to pin the other one's arm down. Fabrizio
was drinking a brandy and telling Benjamin Guggenheim and his manservant of
his adventures in France with Jack. Both men were giving Fabrizio their undivided
attention and respect.
Sitting very subdued in a corner was Spicer Lovejoy.
Jack could not remember him being anywhere else since they got here; or should
he say, since they died here. Jack felt sorry for him. Spicer Lovejoy had given
Cal his unwavering loyalty; and in return for that loyalty, Cal had left him
to die on the Titanic. He was just a casualty of Cal's selfishness and sense
of self-preservation. Jack had considered approaching him once before but thought
better of it. 'Another time,' he had thought.
Tommy looked up and said, "Jack, you're
going to join us?"
"Well, I need your help actually,"
Jack answered. Before Tommy could respond, Jack was sitting down telling them
of his idea. Every eye in the room was on him; all were nodding their heads
in agreement.
Thomas Andrews walked the deck of the Titanic
just like he did every night since the ship sank. Day and night he walked all
through the ship trying to figure out what he did wrong. What could he have
done differently? Sometimes he passed Captain Smith and First Officer Murdoch
-- they looked just as haunted as he did. They always sadly nodded at each other
and continued on their own way, both knowing what the other was looking for
and both unable to find it. It was a sad existence for eternal peace. But they
considered it a just sentence for sending fifteen hundred people to their deaths.
At least that was how they saw it.
'Sleep soundly, young Rose, I have built you
a good ship, strong and true. She's all the lifeboat you need'
Had he really been that arrogant? It sounded
like something Mr. Ismay would say. 'Well I have paid dearly for it,' thought
Thomas Andrews.
Tonight he was more haunted than usual. The conversation
between Jack and the other lads had made him heartsick. Those lads had promising
lives ahead of them. Then a single iceberg took it away. But what really bothered
him was how well they had accepted their fate -- even Jack. He fought it sometimes,
but he fought the life he missed having with Rose, not the life he was living
before her. He had always admired Jack. It took a lot of courage to have dinner
in first class, all the while knowing he was supposed to be the butt of Cal's
cruel joke. Maybe Cal should have thought twice about making Jack Dawson somebody's
joke. He kept his dignity all through dinner; completely winning them over with
his down to earth attitude and charm. He was even able to put Ruth in her place
without dragging himself down. Ruth never knew what hit her. Thomas smiled at
the memory. He felt he owed both Jack and Rose, that somehow he could have prevented
this awful tragedy from occurring. They would still be together if the ship
had never sunk. Every time he heard Jack's anguished cries, he felt as if the
ship was sinking all over again. He was consumed with guilt. Thomas had purposely
gone out of his way to comfort Jack when he was in despair, seeking some sort
of absolution in giving Jack solace. Though it helped knowing he gave Jack some
comfort, he never really found the peace he was so desperately searching for.
"Thomas, Thomas where are you?" Jack
was yelling.
Thomas looked up. 'Now what could be happening?'
he thought.
Jack spotted him on the by the Officers Quarters.
Almost out of breath from running all over the ship, Jack gasped, "I have
been looking all over for you."
"Is something wrong?" Thomas asked.
"Is everything all right?" Now he was very concerned.
"I need you to come with me to the grand
staircase."
"Why?" Thomas asked, puzzled.
"Don't ask, just follow.," Jack said,
grabbing his arm.
When they reached the top of the stairs, every
single person who had perished on the Titanic was gathered there.
"What's this all about?" Thomas said,
totally baffled. He then spotted Captain Smith and Officer Murdoch looking just
as confused as he felt.
"We have something we would like to tell
all three of you," Jack said, trying to keep his voice level.
The three men stood starring into the faces of
the crowd before them, each man lost in his own thoughts of guilt and remorse.
There were so many faces, so many senseless deaths.
Jack swallowed hard and began, "Not one
of us who stands before you now blames you for our deaths. It was accident.
It was God's way of saying to mankind, ‘Never boast there is something I cannot
do. For I shall step forward and prove mankind wrong.' So God did, he sunk the
unsinkable ship. That was what happened that night. If anything, let's hope
that the land of the living learns something from the tragedy so that our deaths
should not be in vain. Our blood should not be on your conscience. It was mankind
who bragged in the face of God, not the ship's carpenter or officers. You all
need to forgive yourselves. Each one of you did the best you could to save lives
that night. There was nothing more that could be done. I, for one, want to thank
you for doing the best you could under the circumstances." With that, Jack
shook each man's hand.
One by one, steerage and first class walked up
to each man, Thomas Andrews, Captain Smith, and Will Murdoch and thanked them
for doing the best they could.
Tommy made it a point to hug Officer Murdoch
and whisper quietly in his ear, "Will, it is all right. It was an accident."
Both men knew what he was referring to.
The three stood in shock. They couldn't believe
their eyes or ears. Not one person blamed them. Some hugged them; others shook
their hands. One steerage woman kissed each of them on the cheek. Slowly it
started to sink in. They were only mortal men. They couldn't fight fate, Mother
Nature or even God himself and expect to win. All they could do was what they
had already done. Peace and forgiveness began to fill each one of them. Tears
streamed down their faces.
"Looks like running around the ship like
chickens with our heads cut off and gathering everyone up was worth it,"
Tommy said to Jack.
Jack nodded and said, "I am late. I have
to go."
"I hate it when he vanishes like that,"
Tommy said to Fabrizio.
"Women do that to you," Fabrizio answered.
Both men laughed and rolled their eyes. They
knew their friend would never change. In reality they never wanted him to. Jack
did a good thing tonight. He gave three lost souls peace and forgiveness that
would last eternity. Who would want to change a friend like that?
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
She sat quietly on the bed in her hotel room.
Brandon's room was across the hall. He was already fast asleep. Rose had checked
before she started to talk to Jack. As much as she loved Brandon, she would
never speak of Jack to him. She would never speak of Jack to anyone. It was
a secret only she and Jack would share. It was the only intimacy she stilled
shared with Jack. She would never do anything to jeopardize it. Her pictures
were spread out on the dresser. She fell back on her bed gazing at them.
"Jack, you're never going to believe what
happened today." she whispered.
Sitting right next to her, Jack thought, 'No
Rose, you won't believe what happened to me tonight.'
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