Rated PG-13
© 1999 Shirley @ SDL747@aol.com
based on some characters
and situations originated by James Cameron
"Rose, what's wrong?" asked Jack, as
he took both her hands and seated her next to him on the bench.
Rose cast her eyes downward. Her lips were trembling
and confusion reigned in her head. Jack took his finger and lifted her chin
so that she was forced to look at him. He studied her face and took a breath.
This was no time to mince words. He had everything and nothing to lose.
"Just get it out in the open, Jack,"
he told himself. And so the words came out of his mouth, "Rose, do you
love me?"
Jack remembered asking her a similar question
a few weeks ago, when he wondered about her love for Cal. At that time there
was shock on her face. Maybe that was just what she needed, to be shocked back
into reality.
Rose looked at him, speechless at first. As Jack
gazed into her eyes, it seemed that he willed the words she spoke.
"Of course, I love you, Jack," she
said
"Then what is going on here, Rose? Why are
you suddenly acting as though you are afraid of me, unsure of me?" he asked.
"Oh, Jack," she said with tears streaming
down her face, "I'm so confused and afraid. You see, I was always told
that if a woman gives herself to a man before she is married, he was just using
her and would have no respect for her."
She stopped talking for a minute and rubbed her
eyes. She took the handkerchief that Jack handed her, but she only held it tightly
in her hands.
"I thought that was maybe that was what
you felt, Jack and that maybe you didn't want me anymore," she said through
her sniffles.
As Rose cried, Jack held her hands. His lips
were set in a firm expression. This was not a reaction he had expected from
her.
"Rose," he began, "if that is
something you learned from your mother or Cal, just forget it. I understand,
but that is not how it is with us. Do you hear me?"
Rose numbly nodded her head.
"Look, Rose," Jack sighed, "I
love you as much, if not more than before. Maybe things shouldn't have happened
that way, but it happened. And I still love you and have respect for you, Rose.
Do you understand?" he said tightening his grip on her hands to make an
impression.
Jack took his handkerchief out of her hand and
began wiping her tears. As he gently dried her cheeks, he continued, "I
want to be with you, share everything with you, learn with you. But I will never
tell you that you belong to me. I don't want that. I will always be proud of
you, but I want you to be free to be your own person."
Rose had stopped crying and she looked down at
their tightly grasped hands. To Rose, these ideas of his were so vastly different
from what Cal had in mind for her. With him she would have been on display,
have no ideas of her own and do whatever he told her. Jack's ideas were such
a contrast. With him she could have the security of his love, freedom and respect.
She would be a fool if she ever doubted Jack and his feelings for her again.
She summoned up the courage to answer the questioning
look in his face. "Oh, Jack, I do love you, very much. And I'm sorry for
this, for making you feel bad again. I'm sorry. It's just that with being sick
and having too much time on my hands to think and wonder about everything, I
became very confused."
When she looked as is she were going to cry again,
Jack kissed her gently.
"Shhh," he whispered as he smoothed
her hair. "It's okay, Rose. I understand, but you did have me a little
worried."
They both gave each other a quick smile.
"Let's enjoy the day. We'll do all the things
we talked about. And I hope you will be up to going somewhere special for dinner,"
he said with his eyes twinkling. "What do you day, Rose?"
She nodded and gave him a smile.
Jack stood up and pulled her up with him. He
would have loved to take her in his arms now and show her how much he loved
her. But this very public park, was not the place. Instead, he put his arm around
her and she rested her head against him as they made their way down the path.
For the first time in three weeks, Rose started
to feel a little like she did that afternoon on Titanic, when she and Jack had
first kissed on the bow of the ship. She wondered why she had ever doubted him.
She trusted him enough that she was willing to give up everything for him. ell,
here she was with no money and no plans for the future, except to be with him.
She felt free and content now. She knew that somehow Jack had always gotten
by. They could make things work. She knew it. It would be hard, but then didn't
all worthwhile things take a little effort? Courage was slowly building inside
her. Life with Jack, would be something special indeed.
Jack smiled to himself. He was glad that he had
gotten Rose to open up to him. He had really wanted to talk a little more about
how things would work for them with Molly's help. But for right now he was satisfied.
He had Rose back where she belonged. Back where they had been just before the
iceberg struck.
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