Rated PG-13
© 1999 Holly @ Roseslay@aol.com
based on some characters
and situations originated by James Cameron
Rose walked into the makeshift office
Senator Smith and Mr. Collins were using for their headquarters in New York
City. She felt very good about what she was going to do. She had saved more
money than she had realized and was ready to travel the world, even if it meant
working her way from place to place when the money she had saved ran out. It
was well worth it. 'I am capable of making decisions and living my own life,
the time for self pity is over, the sadness of what might have been will always
be with me, but I will no longer feel sorry for myself' she thought. Jack had
given her a wonderful gift and she would not repay him by wasting it on self-pity.
Allan Collins was a man of thirty-five, with
curly dark blond hair and large green eyes. His usual serious demeanor always
seemed to disappear when Miss Dawson was around. At first she had frustrated
the hell out of him with her stubbornness, but he soon realized she wanted to
know the truth and would stop at nothing to find it. He had come to think of
her as a little sister and thought her much wiser than her seventeen years.
He had taken her under his wing when he discovered she had no one in the world
and that her only family had perished on the Titanic. He felt there was much more to what happened to her
on the Titanic, but he would not pressure her to talk about it. He could tell it
pained her deeply; when he really looked into Rose's eyes he could see a sorrow
that never went away.
Rose marched into his office and said "Good Morning,
Mr. Collins, I have come to thank you for the job and to tell that I will be
leaving as of this morning."
Allan was a bit taken aback. He became extremely
concerned. "Rose, what on earth are you talking about? Where do you plan to
go?" he asked her.
"My work here is finished. I have another job
or promise I need to fulfill," she replied.
"What do you plan to use as money?" he asked,
now more alarmed.
"I have some money saved and I will be fine,
you don't need to worry about me," she answered. She was becoming annoyed with
his interrogation.
"Rose, forgive me, you have come to be like a
little sister to me, and I just want to make sure you will be all right. And
I have a few concerns about you picking up and traveling the world with no source
of income and no place to go," he said to her. He saw the look of shock on her
face as soon as he had finished his sentence, and was totally baffled with her
reaction.
Tears came to her eyes as she remembered the
last time someone had said that to her. She was instantly brought back to the
gym of the Titanic when Jack had said, "I just want to make sure you will be all right."
She could see the look of concern and love for her on Jack's face. She had hurt
him badly at that moment. She regretted it now, but at the time, she had been
in what seemed to be an impossible situation with her Mother and Cal.
Coming back to the present moment, she saw Allan
looking at her as if she had some sort of spell. "Well, I will be fine. Really,
" she answered him.
Realizing he wasn't going to win this argument,
just like all the others that he had had with her, he changed his approach.
"Rose, we need someone like you working for us and I would be willing to keep
your job open until you return. Also," he said, "since you would still be employed,
you would still receive a small salary from us on a weekly basis."
"No, Allan, I can't do that, it wouldn't be right.
I would be taking money for a job I am not doing," she answered him.
"Rose, I insist. You did an excellent job rounding
up the steerage survivors for us and I would hate to lose such a valuable employee."
Rose was shocked, but she realized this was the
only way he would have peace of mind and know that she would be fine. She felt
an obligation to him for all the kindness he had shown her. Rose had become
quite fond of him also, and looked up to him as an older brother that she never
had. "Okay, Mr. Collins, I will accept your offer," she answered.
"You do realize that I have to know your whereabouts
so I will be able to contact you and also know where to send your paychecks,"
he said.
"Yes, sir, I understand," she answered, "and
thank you once again." With that, she gave him a quick hug and a peck on the
cheek and out the door she went. "You will be hearing from me very soon," she
promised.
Allan knew he could not stop her when she had
her mind made up. But he felt better knowing she would have some money going
to her on a weekly basis. He did not like the idea of her traveling with no
consistent income. He would miss her; he was an only child and he liked having
a younger sister. At least he would be able to keep an eye on her and make sure
she was okay. After all, he would be paying her out of his own pocket.
Jack was in awe of her. She was even more amazing
than he had realized. He watched the scene play out and couldn't believe it.
Only Rose would be able to win someone over to that extent. He was very proud
of her. Last night when she had said, "No more pity," he had become very angry.
Not at how Rose talked to him, but he felt she would start to forget him. He
had blocked himself off so she couldn't feel what he was feeling and cried.
He knew she had to go on with her life, but it felt like a slap in the face.
Mr. Andrews, who always seemed to come around
when needed the most, came and sat next to Jack. "You know, Jack, you did a
fine thing for young Rose, but you can't expect her to wallow in pity for the
rest of her life. It wouldn't be fair to either one of you. She is not telling
you she is forgetting about you. She is saying that she needs to find some sort
of happiness and she can't if she is constantly feeling sorry for herself. You
wanted her to go on. Well, she can't if she keeps reliving the past and what
might have been. She needs to move forward. But moving forward does not mean
forgetting you. It means keeping that promise you asked her to keep," Mr. Andrews
explained tenderly.
Jack looked at him thoughtfully for a moment.
"I guess I was so busy thinking only of myself that I never considered what
she was feeling. Thank you," Jack said as he wiped away his tears. He felt like
a spoiled child who could not have his way and needed a parent to reproof him.
"You knew already, Jack, you just need some reassurance.
No thanks are necessary," Mr. Andrews said as he patted Jack on the back and
walked into the clouds.
Rose was packing her belongings when she felt
him. Her heart soared. She had thought he might be angry with her for last night.
"Rose, I am so sorry. I was being selfish," she
heard him say in her soul.
"Don't be sorry, Jack. I just need you to understand.
I will always love you, but I can't keep your promise if I keep going over what
should have been."
"I know, Rose. I am very proud of you. You have
done so well. You're making it count. I told you I would always be with you,
but I have to take a step back. Otherwise, it will be too hard on both of us.
It will make it easier on you to live life more fully," Jack said, fighting
back the pain of his words.
Rose's eyes brimmed with tears, but she knew
he was right. For a minute she started to panic -- she couldn't do this alone.
Then she thought, ‘I will never be alone. Jack will always be in my heart.'
"I agree, Jack," she answered. "You are safe
in my heart, never doubt that I love you," she said in a whisper as she walked
out the door, her suitcase in one hand and clutching the "Heart of the Ocean"
in the other.
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